Evaluation of Performance

In the performance I only have one line; "6 million Jews wasn't enough he should have killed more". I didn't have much of a character to try and embody, I was just a girl on Take Me Out hoping to get a hot date. This made me frustrated as to how to go about performing and in the end I admit that I feel like I lacked a lot of the energy required for our performance. I was very much out of my comfort zone as our piece was improvised and required some dancing, both of which are not my strong points and I have a great lack of confidence in which I am trying to overcome, and therefore felt very self-conscious which I think added to my lack of energy. What I was surprised at was, although marginally, my performance in front of my peers was better I felt than the final performance. I think it surprised me because I was worried about looking stupid in front of them and when I saw my friends in the audience encouraging me I realized I didn't actually care how stupid I looked. Due to my lack of character though I felt like I didn't have much character work to do, again this was frustrating. I felt I could have done much better but I lacked the confidence to put forward my ideas or partake in a role that involved more characterization. This is something I know I need to work on and will try my hardest to break through in the future. My performance in the final performance was not as good because my confidence sunk again and I felt very self-conscious. I know this is a problem and hopefully as the year goes on and I feel more comfortable in the school and in front of my peers I will gradually start to loosen up and allow myself to look as stupid as I want to.

Altogether I feel my group's performance was good. I think it was quite eccentric and out there which is what we were aiming for. It certainly was shocking. For instance one of the lines was:

Adolf Hitler: (to Esme playing a potential date) I have some industrial sized ovens, what would you put in them?

Esme: I would put the homosexuals in them, I can't stand them.

Hitler: Yes good choice good choice.

This shocked our audiences both times round as it was so out there.

I think I was surprised that our performance went as well as it did because I had no idea what the reaction would be like. My personal favourite performance was given by Safia. I felt she stayed true to the Brechtian techniques as she played a character that was very eccentric and stereotypical and she interacted with the audience. My favourite piece was the one with Jacky, Devon, Maya (who filled in for Hana) and Shyanne. I felt they embraced the Brechtian techniques and it was shocking as well as funny.